I don't wanna think what could have been different if I had taken a step to a different direction, if I hadn't cried so many nights, if I had tought different, if I had decided no to move, not to fight, to resist, to be quiet. And each time I turned a page, I repeatedly said to myself "next time I will be stronger, smarter. I'll be a better person, i'll not make the same mistakes, the same moves, and I won't underestimate how evil can people be".

But since ever I believe that I can really touch people, make them better, pure, free of cruelty and coldness. And I know that my only mistake is to delight and give everything to that special person. And not for a second I learned to think otherwise.

That's why I allways go so hurt, so destryoed, so "bruised" and "torn". Therefore I also go so aware of all the changes I'd ignore, and I repeat once more, once again.

But, in spite of all the evil, all the cruelty and coldness that were severally left in me I know that my heart is full of goodness and kindness and in the day that someone feel truly touched by it, all that I hadn't change, altough I should, it will be so worth it.